I actually think I emotionally shut down.
Can’t focus. Can’t sleep. Can’t get work done. Can’t feel.
Maybe I’m burnt out. Maybe I just need more sleep. Maybe I need an escape.
I think I’ve reached a point where my constantly internalized stress and compartmentalized feels have reached their tipping point and now I can’t really function and it’s showing. It’s easy for me to present myself as if I’m 100% fine but inside, all I am is chaos.
HVRMINN co-founders shot by Rose Callahan for The Rake Magazine.
dapper as fuck. i love it.
On struggling with being darker skinned black,
"… And my mother again would say to me, "You can’t eat beauty. It doesn’t feed you." And these words plagued and bothered me; I didn’t really understand them until finally I realized that beauty was not a thing that I could acquire or consume, it was something that I just had to be.
And what my mother meant when she said you can’t eat beauty, was that you can’t rely on how you look to sustain you. What is fundamentally beautiful is compassion for yourself and for those around you. That kind of beauty enflames the heart and enchants the soul.”
- Lupita Nyong’o
My past mistakes haunt me like dreams that I shouldn’t be able to remember.
Because I have always been willing and prepared to see him with someone else. My wants and desires never come before his and as much as I want to hold on and hope, I am more than ready to let go at any time. Haven’t you ever cared in such a way?
Emotions are difficult. Sometimes I wish I didn’t have any because I think my life would be so much easier.